oh she's cute. But isn't that another board members daughter?
If anyone must really know, I've worked full time at 2 jobs this year to pay off a lot of debt. One of my investments lost me a lot of money last year, I lost everything (my car, my mental health) and I'm cleaning up the mess. I'm currently studying programming with emphasis on Ruby and Python Currently. I was about to enter the nursing program but realized that even though it's a free ticket to move wherever I wanted it wasn't what I truly wanted to do. I've decided that I hate Vancouver and it depresses me and I'm trying to move to Australia (have personal friends in Brisbane and Sydney that are trying to convince me to come over) but I need to have a skill set before I make the jump, since I am aiming for citizenship.
I've put on weight (Remember when I lost 80 pounds?) and I've currently lost 50 pounds of fat and built a strong base of muscle. My goal by New Years is to have visible Abs, but I'm quite pleased with my lifts (all numbers are in 5x5)
Squats: 2 Plates
Deadlifts: 3 Plates
Bench: 3 Plates
Pendelay Rows: Plate and a Half
Power Clean and Press: Plate and a half
Front Military Press (Barbell): Plate and 1/4
Current Weight: 230. I want to get down to 210. I think that would be a healthy body mass for me.
As for my mental health, there is a possibility that I'm bi-polar, but I refuse to believe it, while I do have upswings and downswings I do believe it's situational. I've been on Adderall Since April, and this drug has been a godsend for me in terms of actually getting shit done, and cleaning up my life. I've needed help for a long time. I guess none saw the dangers of me complaining about me dealing with domestic violence since the age of 9 till I was 19, the lack of parenting, the lack of parents etc… I've come now to accept how much this has changed my life and I'm kinda angry that people here, teachers at school and other authority figures did nothing as I was having my life destroyed especially since I was so vocal about it.
It's kinda of a curse. I put up with a shitty childhood, but in return I've stopped countless people from ending their lives or through a rough time (I think I've had 10 girls cry in my car in the last 4 years) because I was a listened and helped them through there problems. I always wondered what I had to offer to this world, and it was my compassion. And it helps me sleep easier at night.
I want to do more, and meet more people. I've become pretty lonely, but at the same time I've been too busy to even log onto a computer other than the casual redditor etc.
Anyways heres a picture of my brother's dog dressed as the big bad wolf
Chao. See you during my next big life change.