Thanks Rob. I am much more mature now after I've been through so its easier for me to see that there are things I cannot change no matter how bad I want them too and that's it nearly pointless to try. I cannot look at what I have lost but instead look at what I still have. A beautiful daughter, a loving family, my health and my future.
yes, keep reminding yourself of the good things in your life.
one other thing though - give yourself time to grieve. in a way, it is a sort of death.