Well BMO was a disaster. Had a cold coming on in the days previous but figured with enough hydration and nutrition and not pushing for a PR I could make it through ok.
Things were ok for the first half then right around kits beach started feeling dizzy and short of breath. Vomited. Tried to get some water and gels in me and keep going at a slow jog but just vomited again at the foot of the bridge. Walked across the bridge. Broke down and decided to quit at km 31, sat down and cried for a bit, then decided to finish it even if it meant walking the whole thing. Walked the next 9kms then did the slowest jog of my life for the next two to the finish. Time was 5:50 a full hour and a half slower than last year.
Looking back on it now I don't know what to think. Part of me is happy i got it done but I went to bed full blown ill with a fever and still feel like utter shit. The other part of me thinks I shouldn't have even attempted it. Yet another part of myself is proud of myself for getting it done despite feeling utterly defeated and hopes that attitude will get me through Squamish 50. Yet another part of me is depressed and has no desire to ever run again but I'm pretty sure that will pass when I get better.
Mec trail race 3, the 55k ultra I signed up for is in less than a month but I don't want to think about that right now. Will have to see...